The Flip of a Switch

We all need those moments to escape from our lives, or even from ourselves… today I needed that badly. Over the last few weeks, I have been anything but myself. I have been lazy, unmotivated, and not bothering with anything. That’s not who I am, or who I want to become; I am usually motivated, driven, and want to do everything and anything. Maybe you are feeling this way also like you are just not yourself lately, it’s weird and different because on the outside you are the same as always. But on the inside, where only you know what’s going on, it seems like an upside mess.

That’s how I have been feeling lately, which is very unusual and probably unlike you too. We both have 2 options, or 2 paths to take let’s say. We can continue experiencing this horrible and weird feeling, or we can sit down and have a talk with ourselves. Many people don’t like being alone with their thoughts, and I understand because sometimes they don’t take the best shape or form, but when we’ve hit this point where our whole lives are being affected, we need too.

I need you to sit down and just be with yourself. Try to pinpoint what situations or events led you to this state of not being you. Recall how or who you were before this weird phase, and think if you want to go back to the person you were, or if you want to start fresh, both are an equally good option. These thoughts that come from sitting down with yourself don’t happen in one minute or even one day. Rather, it’s an accumulation of all the little moments of reflection you have had. Whether it’s that small journal entry where you noticed something was off about you. Or during that walk or metro ride home, where you were just by yourself and listening to music. Or those random moments during the day where you space out and think “What is going on with me?”

Those little moments over time, come together and will lead you to feel this shift. It’s not dramatic or filled with just the right background music and beautiful scenery like in a movie, but it’s like a flip of a switch. Its quiet, fast and you don’t even notice it. You go back to your old self without even really noticing it, and trust me you will be so happy and relieved.

Somehow over time that drive will return, you’ll want to do things, and go places, and get shit done. However, all of that takes time, and you absolutely need to work at it. Yes, it will be hard, uncomfortable, and weird, but when that flip of a switch happens you’ll be glad you went through all that.

Remember, this weird phase you are in is not who you are, its how you get out of it and return or create your true self, that makes you who you are.

Thanks for reading! Have a lovely day!

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An Unexpected Result

At the beginning of October, I set myself the challenge of writing 31 blog posts in 31 days.

I did not reach 31 blog posts, and that did disappoint me, and I felt like I had failed myself and the blog. But then I looked at the number of blog posts I did post and including this post I wrote 16 posts.

Some of you might see this as a failure since I only accomplished half my goal. And though that is true, I see this as an accomplishment. I went into this venture, with the mentality that I’ll go through it for 3 days and then dump it just like every other project. Surprisingly, I proved myself wrong, I kept coming back and pushing on. Sometimes my doubt did get the best of me, but I didn’t let it put me down forever. These 16 blog posts are an accomplishment because it helped me learn new things, and see that this is something I want to keep around in my life.

October was also a time I wanted to designate for getting my life back on track, to find myself again, reignite my spark and drive! And that did not go according to plan, or in anyway that I wanted it to… but while everything else around me was crumbling, or floating away, this blog was here.

And I hope you realize that this blog and I will always be here, whether you need advice, comfort, an escape or a good laugh. Creating that sense of community, or creating something that will always be there was an accomplishment. And honestly one I did not expect to happen, but I am sure glad it did!

Just a heads up, from now on, I will be posting on Sundays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.

I can’t wait to see where this will lead me… and I hope you stick along for the turbulent ride ahead, it’s going to be a blast!

Have a wonderful day!

Things Take Time

Whenever I start getting impatient with the universe, I sit down and remind myself that everything takes time. Now I can stress and freak-out during that time of waiting, or I can be calm and trust in the fact that whatever is going to happen will put me on the path that I need to be.

I am going, to be honest, I am constantly waiting for “the one”, or really anyone to cross my path so we can instantly connect and fall in love. Obviously, it’s much more complicated than that, but the basics are what I’ve always wanted. And that hasn’t happened to me, and for the longest of time I put myself down about it. I thought that my hair was too curly, or not curly enough. Or that I was too loud, or too talkative, or not talkative enough. I thought I was ugly and scary, or too bitchy. Essentially, I thought a lot of bad things about myself because no boy had ever paid attention to me in that way. But when they started too, those excuses had evaporated, and I realized that they had absolutely no foundation to base themselves on and that I was perfect just the way I am. Just to clarify, I didn’t need a boy to tell me that, what I needed was a wakeup call to realize that I shouldn’t need someone else to tell me my self-worth.

Okay then after those excuses were crushed, why did I still feel this sense of hopelessness? I then started seeing someone, and it didn’t work out. We were both interested in each other, and we both felt comfortable around each other, so why didn’t it go further?

I don’t have an exact explanation for this, but what I’ve come to understand now that I’ve been removed from the situation, is that we would not have lasted, or even remotely worked out in the long run. We were at different speeds, and at different points in our lives. But then that led me to think, well then why the hell did I waste my time? And I can only guess that the universe was trying to show me what I didn’t want, and that at the time it wasn’t the best decision for me to enter a new relationship. But in the end, it was not a waste of time, because I still enjoyed being around this person.

I’m am not saying to not go after what you want; you should always go after what you want! But in moments like those, I was reminded that I didn’t want that, I just wanted the idea of being with them.

The universe will have everything figured out and act according to your decisions. I could have decided to do certain things that may have thrown me off track, and the universe would have put me right on track again. What I am trying to say is to have faith in the universe, and in yourself. Things take time, and it will work itself out the way its supposed to.

Morning Pages

I started adding something new to my morning routine since it felt like it was time to change things up a bit. I started writing morning pages! I used to do this when I was younger, it was something my mom insisted we had to do for a time. I’m sure you have heard of this before, but if not, essentially every morning before you really do anything else or carry on with your day, you take a few minutes to just sit down and write. The idea is to write in a stream of consciousness style, so whatever comes to your mind without giving it a second thought or judgment. Now I’m not exactly sure about the science behind it but it is said to clear your mind, focus you on the day ahead, and make you feel a little clearer about the clutter in your mind. I suggest doing some further reading on it if you are interested in the benefits. It has also been very useful for artists, or anyone that does anything creative throughout their day, which is almost everyone.

Now from what I read, and from what I remember from doing them when I was younger is that you might get really discouraged. We might jump to the idea to go buy a new notebook for these morning pages (any excuse to buy a new notebook, am I right?), but I say use one you have probably only used half of, and commit to doing it for a week, and then 30 days, and then see the progress or how it affects you. At least, that’s what I am going to try, and ill report back!

I encourage you to look it up and give it a try! I’ll check in after awhile to see what I am thinking of them!

If you practice morning pages or have done it, please leave some advice down below or your experience!

Thanks for reading, and I hope you have a wonderful day!

 

We Can’t Know What Happens Next

We want to know everything that’s going to happen to us, and we want to know it now. We want our lives to feel complete, we want to know exactly who we are, we want to know when we will meet the one, and we need to know now. We essentially want the answers to the mystery that is our lives, but doesn’t that defeat the purpose of living?

Its like when you want to read a book, but someone tells you the entire plot and the ending, why would you want to read the book anymore? Same goes for our lives, if we were born with the plot and ending of our story, what would the point of living be? We would essentially live a life where we know exactly what’s going to happen, which does seem slightly calming and rather appealing, I agree.

But I want you to imagine not having that gasp-worthy moment of someone sweeping you off your feet, or that surprise birthday someone you loved spent weeks planning for you; Or those moments when you accomplish something, and you feel on top of the world. Imagine not having those moments…

Some will argue that at least you would know the bad that is to come. And to that I say, why on earth would you want to sit around with the thoughts of all the bad things that are bad to happen to you?It’ss like if you were to just live in darkness for your entire existence. There would be no purpose for you; you wouldn’t have that tiny glint of hope or brightness to get you through those bad times, therefore you wouldn’t get through them, and you wouldn’t live. At that point you would barely be existing, you would just be going through the motions of a preplanned life.

This might sound very blunt, but its simply to prove a point. We don’t get the right to know how our life is going to pan out. Think of this as the universe trying to make sure you give it your all, you chase after you dreams, and you live as if you did not know what’s going to happen next.

And personally, I think that’s the only way you can truly live: to live as if you do not know what lies ahead.

Knowing what’s going to happen to you, doesn’t bring that sense of calm we all want. We will never have that sense of calmness, because life is not meant to be simply calm. Life is meant to be the rockiest hills you can imagine, with so many twists and turns, beautiful valleys, and unfortunate events lurking near by. But somehow together, all that jumbled mess, can create one beautiful and amazing life that’s worth living for.

 

Thanks for reading, and have a wonderful day!

Fall Candles

It is officially Fall! With Fall, comes the aspect of feeling cozy, and I had already shared with you all my favourite teas, so I thought that it would be nice to talk about their accompanying friend, candles!

My mom and I are obsessed with candles, even just regular non-scented candles. They bring such a calm atmosphere and a sense of peacefulness. So here are a few of my favourite candles!

  • Sweet Cinnamon Pumpkin by Bath and Bodyworks
  • Coconut by Pier 1 Imports
  • Warm Vanilla Sugar by Bath and Bodyworks
  • Fall Festival by Ashland

I know that scented candles especially have become a trend for fall, but they were always a part of something important in my life. I remember lazy Sunday evenings after the sun had gone down, and the candle would be lit, and we would be reading and just hanging out together as a family. The light from the candle was a nice way to bring us together.

Hope you check out these candles!!

Have a wonderful day!!

Top 10 Favourite Quotes

I thought today I would just share a few of my favourite quotes, that pertain to anything and everything really. Here they are!

  1. “As long as you’ve got passion, faith and are willing to work hard, you can do anything in this life”-anonymous
  2. “Be the kind of woman that inspires other women to up their game” – anonymous
  3. “She has fire in her soul and grace in her heart” – anonymous
  4. “Surround yourself with people who empower you to be better” – anonymous
  5. “Be the girl who decided to go for it”- anonymous
  6. “It’s not who you are that holds you back, its who you think you are not” – anonymous
  7. “Follow your soul, it knows the way”- anonymous
  8. “You must do the things you think you cannot do” -Eleanor Roosevelt
  9. “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people just exist” – Oscar Wilde
  10. “Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times if one only remembers to turn on the light”—Albus Dumbledore

And there you have it, my 10 favourite quotes! Hopefully one of them struck a chord with you. As you can see they do have an underlying theme of motivation. They keep me going, and remind me not to be afraid to do what I want, follow my dreams, or live my life!

Comment down below your favourite quotes! I am always looking for new ones!

Thanks for reading, and have a wonderful day!