You Are Interesting

I used to think something was wrong with me because I didn’t have any hobby’s. I mean sure as a kid I did swimming, dance, piano, soccer, but none of them ever stuck. I was very much the kid that did something for a year and got bored of it.

But there were a few things that stuck and are still around today, like reading and writing. Ever since I picked up a harry potter book I have become addicted to reading and absolutely love it. Getting lost in a world completely apart from my own and going on this journey with the characters makes my heart feel full and content. I love to create and fantasize scenarios in my head and the only logical way I could think to do that was through writing. These are things that I’ve been doing since I could remember. But still, when I say these are my hobbies I get a funny look.

This entire rant has stemmed from a conversation I was having with some people a while ago in which they were all discussing a sport they loved or a passion/hobby they still do today. I didn’t enter the conversation and instead just listened in. Was something wrong with me? If I didn’t have a hobby that defined some part of my life, then who was I? Was there anything interesting to me? This was obviously caused by overthinking, but the answer to my questions are rather simple. Nothing is wrong with me, a hobby doesn’t define you, and yes you still are interesting.

For a long time, I avoided becoming close to people because I thought if they find out how boring I am and that there isn’t anything to me then they won’t want to be my friend. I look at that logic now and I’m almost laughing at how childish it sounded, but at the same time is explained a lot about why I didn’t have many friends or become close to many of them.

The truth is, there is so much to me, and there is so much to you also. We think that because we don’t have a long list of hobby’s or passions then we can’t be interesting. We all have passions and interests and are so much deeper than anyone can imagine. It took me realizing that reading and writing, and this blog are part of who I am. The problem was, I was embarrassed by this because it wasn’t conventional. You should never be ashamed or embarrassed by what you love and what defines you. Don’t let other’s conventions dictate your worth, or what you think about yourself. You have so much awesomeness and are so much more than meets the eye. You are special, unique and interesting. If someone can’t see that in you then they are not worth your time.

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day!

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Journaling

If you have never tried journaling, then you are missing out. The reason as to why people start or even continue journaling differs from person to person. I used to journal a lot when I was a kid, but it was mainly summaries of what I had done that day, which has proven to be interesting and cute to look back on now. But when I really started to pick up journaling, it was a more dark and sad period of my life. It was a way to take all the jumbled mess and let it explode onto paper, it was therapeutic really.

I did stop for awhile after that as things started to shift but picked it up again. It then became more about thinking through decisions or trying to understand how I felt the way I was feeling about certain situations. I had progressed and grew up and my journal entries were reflecting that.

Journaling is what you want it to be. Some people write endless pages, others make lists of what they’re grateful for, some use it for manifestation. There are an endless amount of things that you could do with journaling.

That’s all nice an easy, but how do you make it a habit? How do you enjoy journaling? As for many things, this is when you need to establish your “Why”. Why are you journaling? It is because you need to take a load off your shoulders? Find some calm and peace? etc. The reason why I began journaling has changed, but now I find it a nice way to write out my ideas, or my thoughts on life. I’m also a person who loves working on bettering myself and seeing how much I have changed over time, so I use past entries to see just how far I’ve come. And to continue doing that in the future I need to write down what’s happening in my life now.

Grab yourself a new notebook, or one you already have and make it a point to just write one page (or more if you wish) and start with something easy. Write about how you are feeling right then and there, or something that happened today good or bad. Write something down, don’t think about it at all. Journaling comes from within, so just write from your heart and soul. Just write.

I hope you really do start getting into journaling, it has become something I look forward to doing every night before bed. Try it out!

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day!

How to Keep Going Throughout the Year

At the beginning of the year, we feel this sense of rush, joy, renewal, and ambition. But eventually that will fade as the year goes on, and you might find yourself stuck, bored or drained… perhaps all 3 if you are anything like me. Today I wanted to talk about habits and things we need to start now and carry them on for the rest of the year, to make sure we do not fall into the dreaded slump. Now, these are not full proof and might not work for everyone, but they do work for me.

  1. Self Care

This is so important, and the first thing I want to address. We get caught up in the idea of helping others, and pleasing everyone around us, but ourselves. The way I see it and explain it is that you have x amount of energy, and often we give 100% of it away, and we are left with nothing. Which can explain why a lot of people feel drained and tired. I did this for the longest of time, and some might call me selfish, but when it started affecting my day to day life, even my parents were noticing changes in me that were not for the better. Self-care means reserving some of that energy for yourself. You can practice self- care in so many ways, from reading a book to yoga and meditation to taking yourself out for coffee and just people watching, journaling, being creative etc. Self-care is very personal and should be tailored to your specific needs. For example, I know many people that to feel reenergized they need to be near people. On the other hand, where I am, I need to be alone to recharge. I just mentioned a few ideas but do look around the internet and books for so many unique ways that might suit you and your needs.

  1. Reward yourself

Have you noticed that if you look at your calendar and you have nothing to look forward to, life looks a little dull and boring? Because its true the same thing over and over gets boring, it doesn’t have to be that way! Make plans with people, spend time with friends and family; I don’t care how busy you are, nothing is more important than spending time with the people you love. Plan a night out, a spa day, a vacation even. When we set or create rewards for ourselves, it gives us an incentive to be productive and work towards something.

  1. Re-evaluate your goals

At least on a weekly basis, I need to go back to my goals, because they become so secondary in our minds, while the more immediate things become important. But your goals are also important, and you need to put them at the front of your brain. When looking at them, think about if they align with what you still want. Do they still make sense? Is there anything you want to add or take out? Are there any new goals that you want to accomplish? I always say that everything around us and ourselves is constantly changing. Your goals need to keep up with you and what you want from life.

 

These are obviously just 3 tips, but I do recommend you refer to them in the coming months of 2018! Comment down below if you have any other suggestions that you think can help people avoid that stuck, drained feeling we often all feel.

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day!

5 More Tips for Being Productive

The minute I stepped into college, the idea of productivity and constantly being busy was cemented into my brain. Like many other students, I got caught up in the idea that If I was not always somewhere or doing something, then I was being lazy and wasting my time. But before you knew it, I was losing it. Everything from relationships, to my mental and physical health, and my overall sanity had been thrown out the window, and I felt utterly shattered, weak and exhausted.

The idea of constantly being busy and being productive has a lot of negative consequences like I mentioned above and varies with everyone’s own personal experience. So today when I talk about being productive, I truly want you all to keep in mind that you need to take time for yourself and your loved one. Life is not meant to always go, go, go! Slow down, because what happens when you don’t is that you often go through a burnout. I completely agree with the notion of being productive but sacrificing your wellbeing to accomplish everything on your to-do list is not worth it. Please be mindful and aware of your habits and take care of yourself. Your career or school should never be prioritized above your mental or physical health.

But there are days when you need to get things done. Here are 5 tips I truly use to keep myself motivated and productive, but I also remember that not every day will be super productive and that it is okay to slow down.

  1. Set Goals

Set daily, weekly, monthly and yearly goals. These might look a little daunting which is why you have to break them down and set deadlines with rewards attached to them. But if you want more info, check out my goal setting blog post I recently put up!

  1. Break down goals into smaller tasks

As mentioned before, breaking down a large task or goal into small and easier steps makes a difference. For example, you have an essay to write, if you just keep writing down write do the essay, it will seem like a giant and daunting task which you will most likely procrastinate it. If you break into down into steps such as research, rough draft, edit, proofread, cite etc.  you are making the task much more manageable and less scary.

  1. Prioritize Well

If you sit down and look at your to-do list which is probably equal to the length of your arm at this point, chances are you will want to run away from it and not do anything. But on certain days there are just things that absolutely need to get down. What I recommend is prioritizing your top 3 or 5 items on your to-do list. Not to say you ignore the rest, but by setting them as a priority you can get them out of the way first. Usually, these are the bigger, longer or more lengthy tasks we have, and by doing them right away you will feel like you’ve had a more accomplished day.

  1. A fresh mindset

Every day is a new chance, and a new opportunity, even every minute is a new opportunity. What you need to understand is that what happened yesterday should not affect how you are today. And same goes for what is going to happen tomorrow, it should not affect how you are today. What happened this morning, does not need to affect the rest of your day. You need to make a conscious choice and effort to make sure that the bad things stay in the past, and the daunting things are not dealt with until the time comes. By going into the day with the thought that it’s a new day, a new chance, a new opportunity, you take away the self-doubt and emotions that go into procrastinating or being lazy.

  1. Make use of online sites

I have a slight obsession with planning, to the point where it calms me down. I love using a paper agenda, and writing out my to-do lists, but sometimes when I am at school or on the go, I rather just look at my phone or laptop to see what I must do. I put all my due dates or events into my google calendar, which then sinks with my laptop calendar and my phone calendar, so no matter where I am I can check when an essay or assignment is due. For online to-do lists and such, I use a website called Trello (not sponsored), and it essentially allows me to lay out everything I need to do. I keep track of my daily goals, weekly goals, and my 2018 goals. It’s just a nice electronic way of keeping up with whatever you would have otherwise written down.

Those are the 5 tips I have for you today, remember that these work for me and might not work for everyone, but do give them a shot and let me know what you think!

I would also like to thank everyone who has been commenting lately, the feedback means so much to me and helps me a lot!! Thank you!

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day!

 

Goal Setting

Goals. Do we even know what a goal is? How do we get there and what does it take?
Today we’re going to look at the foundations or basics if you will, of a goal, and then how to structure your path to achieving this goal.

But before anything, you need to have at least a vague idea of the goal you want to reach or accomplish. Say your goal is to do well in school or open your own business, those are very vague ideas, but they are a good starting point. Now those ideas are broad so you will need to break them down and make them much more specific. When being specific you can start to visualize the end goal, and it is no longer just a floating idea in your brain.

Once you have that you need to establish your Why. For the longest of time I did not do this, and I constantly wondered why I lost motivation or momentum. For example, my goal this month was to upload every Tuesday and Thursday, which I have slightly been keeping up with. But okay great I have that idea, but then I had to specify it and say it was going to be centered around advice, and starting off the new year on the right foot.

But when I established the reason as to why I wanted to write and post these types of posts, it came down to the fact that I wanted to at least help one person, or inspire them to fulfill what they have the potential to do. I wanted to help someone achieve their goals. So now every time I don’t feel like writing or publishing, I go back to my Why. I upload so maybe it will get one person thinking or help them, and quite honestly sometimes it helps me become inspired or motivated as well. The Why reminds you why you are working towards your goal, and keeps you in line.

Another measure that I do to keep myself in check is to think about what will stop me from continuing this goal. Often its laziness, self-doubt, or lack of time, with many other things that depend on the situation. Now think of what you can do to prevent that, or stop those negative feelings when they’re just starting. For example, when I run into self-doubt which happens much more often then I like, I remind myself that I am writing this to help someone, and even if it doesn’t get out to anyone, I am writing it for myself. Essentially you need to anticipate the roadblocks and find solutions to them right away. Trust me it will save you time and energy and will keep you on the path towards your goal.
Now let’s talk about your actual goal. You have the end of it, but the journey to the goal is going to be a lot of work. To make this less stressful and manageable, you need to write a plan of action. In it, there should contain the broken down steps and even smaller steps within them, that you will need to accomplish to bring you one step forward to accomplishing your goal. And what will keep you in check in this part, is by setting deadlines. You should have your deadline for the main goal, but also make deadlines (that are realistic) for your smaller steps. This will make sure you don’t abandon your goal or spend too much time not working on it.

And the last component to goal setting is actually doing the work to achieve your goal. I am telling you now, that everything you want is closer than you think, and that the sacrifices you will make will be worth it. But this will only be worth it if this is what you truly want. Also remember that if you get to a point where this goal does not align with what you want, you are allowed to change it. Make sure it is something you truly want and are passionate about, and you would give your blood, sweat, and tears for. If it is, then go out there and kill it. I believe in you, and you need to believe in yourself.

Thanks for reading, and have a wonderful day!

How I Plan My Year

We are now well into 2018, and for some, they have already lost that ‘new year new me’ spirit or are using that fuel to their potential, while others are still trying to get it together. But no matter which direction you are coming from, and regardless of the date on a calendar, you can always plan your year and start off with a clean slate.

Today, I want to take you through a few steps that will help you create a guideline for your year or even a rough idea of what is to come. But before anything starts you absolutely need some form of an agenda! I cannot stress this enough, but agendas will save your life, and take away the everyday stress we get from being disorganized. I am a little extra and use both google calendar that syncs with my phone, and a paper agenda… overboard I know. But having something to write down and plan in, is crucial. It’s a way to get all the jumble that’s in your head out into the world, as well as allow you to tease out the main ideas that were floating around in your head.

Now that you have your agenda of choice, fill in all the important dates you have in the year to come. Whether that be longstanding appointments, birthdays, events etc. At this time, I also like to put reminders on my agenda throughout different times of the year to remind me to make future appointments. For example, my hair will need a trim by may, so in April I will write down a little reminder to book that appointment. Or, if you need to change the oil of your car, write a reminder a few weeks before you want to have it done that you need to book the appointment. This is simply being proactive and planning in advance.

Now, look at your goals for the year. By this point, I hope you have a few, but new ones will and should come up throughout the course of the year, and in that case, just add them in. But the ones you have now need to be broken down into steps. These can vary, but with each step create a deadline, aside from the big deadline you have for reaching your goal. Write them down on your agenda; at the same time come up with a reward that you will give yourself once you accomplish these steps and the goal. For a long time, I just set goals and no rewards and quickly lost the motivation to follow through with it. By setting deadlines and rewards you are motivating and encouraging yourself to get working.

From goals, let’s hop into resolutions for a few short moments. Goals are concrete and once they are complete, that’s the end of them, you come up with new ones. The thing with resolutions is that these require a lot of work, and don’t have an end goal that you will immediately see. But let’s say that you want to read more, well then plan it out. Plan what books to buy, when, how many, how much will it cost etc. this will help you achieve the resolution of say, reading 2 books every month. Resolutions can easily be incorporated into our daily schedule, and getting it to become a habit takes commitment and planning.

A subsection of these goals can be financial goals. Maybe there is a trip you want to take by a certain time, maybe you need to save up for school, or maybe you just want to save money. What you can do is see how much of your income per month you will need to save, to save a target goal at the end of the year. Say you want to save $1200 by the end of the year, and after you look at your monthly income, you realize that you can do that if you put aside $100 a month. Write this down, write down your saving budget, your spending budget, and how much you are saving along the way.

I hope these few tips inspire you to get cracking on planning the new year.

Dream big and Plan big.

Have a wonderful day!

5 Tips for Starting off the New Year

Happy New Year and Welcome to 2018! For some, 2017 was a rough year, and others it was the best year of your life, or if you are anything like me it was a mix of both. Regardless of that, the beginning of a new year evens the playing feel, and we all get the same clean slate. Many people find it the whole “new year new me” a cliché and I don’t disagree with them, but they forget that it’s the chance or opportunity that many have been waiting for. For those who are willing to see the new year as another chance, then stick around!

Today I am going to share 5 things I like to do when transitioning into a new year. Throughout the rest of the month, I will share more posts centered around the new year, goal setting, and starting off on the right foot. But for today, let’s just start with the small steps

  • Be Honest with Yourself

You are about to end a  year, and this is probably the best time to tie up loose ends from the previous year. Reflect on what happened, because often we think the year was nothing or uneventful, but when we sit down and think about it we realize just how crazy your year was. Think about the good, the bad, the decisive moments, the times you failed or achieved something. Remember all those funny and embarrassing moments and those times when you didn’t quite feel yourself. These things have shaped who you are going into 2018, and you need to fully accept they happened, and move on from the ones that were not a positive influence. What this helps to do is show you how much you have changed, and you have not even realized it.

  • Establish who you are

The last point perfectly leads into this tip. You need to establish who you are, a lot has changed since the last New Years. Take this time to see how strong you have become. Maybe you have become more confident, or clever, or kind. Or maybe some situations have led you to lose confidence, or become bitter and please know that it is not necessarily a bad thing, life tends to wear people down. If that is what happened then think of 2018 as a chance to maybe not be as bitter or to work towards gaining back your confidence. Perhaps you are content with how 2017 changed you, and if you are then head into 2018 with full force. But before you enter into the new year, evaluate who you are and what you are made of. You are all tough, confident, kind, generous, lovely people. It’s just a matter of finding that part of you that life has pushed away. But I believe that if I can, or anyone else can, so can you.

  • Buy an Agenda

Once the self-evaluation is over, its time to get working. Take that new-found energy and put it to good use. And the first thing you should do is buy an agenda, it doesn’t have to be a fancy expensive one (like I bought, but I honestly love and cherish that thing), it can even be from the dollar store. What matters is that it has a page and the correct dates for the year in it.

  • Plan

Now that you have a new agenda its time to get planning (I will do a more in-depth blog post about this and goal setting later in the month). Planning is half of the job, but once you plan out your goals, your appointments, and daily to-dos you will feel so much better. The mess that has been swimming around in your head is now down on paper and you can visually see this mess, and see what is worth being there and what you can just throw away. I always say, plan, plan, plan and plan some more. Planning eases us when we are stressed and anxious, as well as makes us more organized. But do remember that with all this planning you need to be flexible, and you need to be able to adapt to whatever life throws at you. Plan a lot, but keep an open mind.

  • The ‘New Year Phase’ does not Define your Entire Year

So often we forget that a year has 12 months, 365 days, and a whole lot of hours. So much can change, you can change so much, everything can take a 180 in an instant! If you get to a point and you realize that the goals or new years resolutions you set at the beginning of the year don’t align with you or your situation now, its okay to re-evaluate them. It does not mean you are a quitter, or lazy, it means you are being responsible and seeing what works best for you and not anyone else, or whatever society dictates. As well, if you get to the end of next year and didn’t have the year you expected just remember that you did your best and you gave it you’re all. That’s what matters the most at the end of it all, that you didn’t give up and you kept pushing forward.

For the rest of the month, I will be sending positive vibes, motivations and more your way! Have a wonderful year, and keep going! You got this!!

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day!

Reality Check

Life will slap you in the face, and you will never see it coming.

I’ve had numerous slaps in the face (basically, reality checks), whether it be from school, family, friends, money or even work. I thought that these reality checks were finally done and that it happened once and that was it. Except, it had to continue because we take forever to realize what is right in front of us.

Its been years, and I didn’t realize that certain people were not good friends for me, and do not need to be in my life. Yet time and time again, I forgot that these people were not good for me. Reality did what it does best, and made sure that I remembered how these people were, or else I would’ve steered myself in a horrible direction.
Reality once again hit when it came to my family, and how I didn’t spend enough time with them. I was letting life go by, and not seeing my family, and when they expressed how upset they were, I didn’t understand why. It’s only when I was forced to look at the situation from their perspective that I realized that I needed my family because they are my support group and that they needed me since I am part of their support group. But I needed a slap in the face from life to remember that.

These are only a few examples, but if you pay attention life is constantly sending you these warning signs. It’s a blaring loud noise, yet we claim not to hear it because we never pay attention. These reality checks make us realize how inattentive we are to our surroundings, those around us and the world. These reality checks are meant to have us take a step back and realize that the rest of the world is moving and going on and that we need to be part of that.

If everything in your life has been going wrong or flying by too fast, or you believe everything is perfect, take a step back. You need to wake up and realize that there’s something wrong if everything is crumbling around you. Or if you don’t notice where the time is going, and that you think everything is perfect when really you fail to see the areas of your life that desperately needs improvement. Remember that this isn’t a bad thing, it’s a way to make your life truly better, and not just a cover up your life with the idea that everything is okay.

Life has been sending you all these warnings, and if you haven’t noticed them, then take this blog post as your need for a reality check.

I hope this helps one of you!

Have a wonderful day, and thanks for reading!

The Flip of a Switch

We all need those moments to escape from our lives, or even from ourselves… today I needed that badly. Over the last few weeks, I have been anything but myself. I have been lazy, unmotivated, and not bothering with anything. That’s not who I am, or who I want to become; I am usually motivated, driven, and want to do everything and anything. Maybe you are feeling this way also like you are just not yourself lately, it’s weird and different because on the outside you are the same as always. But on the inside, where only you know what’s going on, it seems like an upside mess.

That’s how I have been feeling lately, which is very unusual and probably unlike you too. We both have 2 options, or 2 paths to take let’s say. We can continue experiencing this horrible and weird feeling, or we can sit down and have a talk with ourselves. Many people don’t like being alone with their thoughts, and I understand because sometimes they don’t take the best shape or form, but when we’ve hit this point where our whole lives are being affected, we need too.

I need you to sit down and just be with yourself. Try to pinpoint what situations or events led you to this state of not being you. Recall how or who you were before this weird phase, and think if you want to go back to the person you were, or if you want to start fresh, both are an equally good option. These thoughts that come from sitting down with yourself don’t happen in one minute or even one day. Rather, it’s an accumulation of all the little moments of reflection you have had. Whether it’s that small journal entry where you noticed something was off about you. Or during that walk or metro ride home, where you were just by yourself and listening to music. Or those random moments during the day where you space out and think “What is going on with me?”

Those little moments over time, come together and will lead you to feel this shift. It’s not dramatic or filled with just the right background music and beautiful scenery like in a movie, but it’s like a flip of a switch. Its quiet, fast and you don’t even notice it. You go back to your old self without even really noticing it, and trust me you will be so happy and relieved.

Somehow over time that drive will return, you’ll want to do things, and go places, and get shit done. However, all of that takes time, and you absolutely need to work at it. Yes, it will be hard, uncomfortable, and weird, but when that flip of a switch happens you’ll be glad you went through all that.

Remember, this weird phase you are in is not who you are, its how you get out of it and return or create your true self, that makes you who you are.

Thanks for reading! Have a lovely day!

Things Take Time

Whenever I start getting impatient with the universe, I sit down and remind myself that everything takes time. Now I can stress and freak-out during that time of waiting, or I can be calm and trust in the fact that whatever is going to happen will put me on the path that I need to be.

I am going, to be honest, I am constantly waiting for “the one”, or really anyone to cross my path so we can instantly connect and fall in love. Obviously, it’s much more complicated than that, but the basics are what I’ve always wanted. And that hasn’t happened to me, and for the longest of time I put myself down about it. I thought that my hair was too curly, or not curly enough. Or that I was too loud, or too talkative, or not talkative enough. I thought I was ugly and scary, or too bitchy. Essentially, I thought a lot of bad things about myself because no boy had ever paid attention to me in that way. But when they started too, those excuses had evaporated, and I realized that they had absolutely no foundation to base themselves on and that I was perfect just the way I am. Just to clarify, I didn’t need a boy to tell me that, what I needed was a wakeup call to realize that I shouldn’t need someone else to tell me my self-worth.

Okay then after those excuses were crushed, why did I still feel this sense of hopelessness? I then started seeing someone, and it didn’t work out. We were both interested in each other, and we both felt comfortable around each other, so why didn’t it go further?

I don’t have an exact explanation for this, but what I’ve come to understand now that I’ve been removed from the situation, is that we would not have lasted, or even remotely worked out in the long run. We were at different speeds, and at different points in our lives. But then that led me to think, well then why the hell did I waste my time? And I can only guess that the universe was trying to show me what I didn’t want, and that at the time it wasn’t the best decision for me to enter a new relationship. But in the end, it was not a waste of time, because I still enjoyed being around this person.

I’m am not saying to not go after what you want; you should always go after what you want! But in moments like those, I was reminded that I didn’t want that, I just wanted the idea of being with them.

The universe will have everything figured out and act according to your decisions. I could have decided to do certain things that may have thrown me off track, and the universe would have put me right on track again. What I am trying to say is to have faith in the universe, and in yourself. Things take time, and it will work itself out the way its supposed to.

Restart

We are all going to have those days where we don’t feel like ourselves, we feel gross and unmotivated and could care less about anyone or anything. We need a break from ourselves, and our thoughts, and all that is around us. That’s how I have been feeling for the past week, which is why I haven’t uploaded in a while.

I was feeling unmotivated, sad, lonely, and just out of it honestly. But here’s the thing, no one could tell that I was feeling different, and wasn’t myself… it was more of a mental thing than anything else. I was stuck in this rut of a mindset where if I didn’t do this, I could kiss my entire life behind. I was thinking a lot of negative thoughts, a lot of self-doubts and putting myself down… Mentally it was a tough week, and ultimately a rather draining week.

Yesterday, however, I hit the bottom of this weird phase, I completely gave up. I had an exam today and did not even care that I was unprepared. For me, that’s when I know something is wrong, and that’s when my family started catching on also. I am the type of person that needs to do whatever they possibly can before an exam, to feel prepared for when the time comes to write the exam. But this time, I could not bring myself to study, to care, or to bother. And maybe that was not the greatest decision school wise, but for my well being it was the best thing I could’ve done. I stopped my homework, I went to put on my pajamas and lied in bed, in the complete darkness. It was only 9pm, but I didn’t care, I couldn’t handle anything anymore including myself, so I thought I’ll just sleep it off. And before I fell asleep I remember telling myself: Everything will be okay, this weird feeling will end, you’ll do fine on your exam tomorrow, work on Friday will be fine, your future will be fine, everything will be okay.

I went to bed with that in mind, and when I woke up this morning, I felt less weird. The feeling hasn’t entirely disappeared, but its subdued a lot.

Often, especially when we feel overwhelmed, we don’t know what to do. What I needed to do was reset my mindset. I was in a negative funk, where I thought my life would fall apart or collapse if I did one little thing wrong or out of line. But really that doesn’t happen because what you did yesterday, does not have to affect what you did today. I was a horrible mood yesterday, but I did not let that affect how I am today.

With a clearer mind, I now notice how much of a mess my life was, and how much of a mess I felt like. I don’t like messes (except my closet, it’s just a scary place really), and I especially hate feeling like a mess. Once I realized that, I made a note in my agenda to clean my room and my desk on Saturday morning; I planned out a mini-pampering session on Sunday; I called my friend and made plans with her because I hadn’t seen her in ages and she is the one that you usually bring me back to focus, and I planned. I planned, and planned, and planned as if my life depended on it. I planned what school work to do, my budget for the week, when I work or when I don’t work when things were due if I had any events coming up.

When you feel like a mess, you probably won’t notice that you are one until you yourself have a moment where everything hits the fan. Now being a mess should never be a bad thing, but rather it should be a point where something is not working right, and you need to re-evaluate what’s going on in your life and adjust accordingly.

I recommend, that if you’re not feeling yourself, to go to bed with this intention that tomorrow will be better, and that everything will be okay. Because that little bit of hope that all will work out makes everything better.

I know this was more of a rant than anything else, but I know a lot of people go through these weird phases, and it’s nice to know you are not alone. Don’t worry these phases happen to everyone all the time. You just need to make sure you do whatever works for you, to get back on track of things.

 

Thanks for reading, and have a wonderful day!

Ambition

Today, I want to get you thinking about ambition. Do you consider yourself an ambitious person? Do you surround yourself with ambitious people? I can tell you right now that I am a very ambitious person, but I do not always surround myself with the same type of people. And this is no means a bash towards those who are not as ambitious, you do you. But for me at least, those who are not as ambitious as I am do not motivate, nor inspire me to push further or to keep going when it gets rough.

Say I am in a room, and someone says let’s go for coffee. They do this every day and I know that I can’t afford to go for coffee (not only because I am a broke student, and it adds up after x amount of time a week)  because I have an assignment due the next day. In general, most people will go for the coffee, but the ones that stay behind, the very few, are the ones you want to be surrounding yourself with. They are ambitious, they have goals and they have deadlines to meet, and you can tell that they will be a good influence on you! This is once again not to hate or bash anyone that is not like that, but for me, I need those types of people around me. (Note: I am generalizing, and I am lover of all things coffee, and it is okay to go grab the coffee;

I need to be able to check myself in place and realize that the only reason I am not accomplishing what I want, or let’s say getting the marks that I want, is that I am not pushing myself. I don’t see others working 12 times as much as I am, and don’t want to even try them. I am not saying I want to compete with anyone, because most times why or what you are doing are incomparable, but because I know that if they can do it, then why can’t I? Which is why a lot of the time I feel very unmotivated at home, alone doing homework and readings in my basement. I have no one to give me a reality check and show me just how much I can push myself, and how well I can accomplish something.

That’s what I mean by are you an ambitious person? Does seeing others work hard to motivate you, or inspire you to do better than what you are doing right now? Think about it… it will increase your productivity, accomplish your tasks and goals, and overall it will make you feel better.

Thanks for reading! I hope this motivates you a little bit, and you get working on whatever needs to be done!

Have a wonderful day!